New Addiction: Frozen Freeze (JJ Lin)

Too stressed up with life recently; I have one of the my worst outbreaks recently.

If these images happen to scare anyone in the middle of the night, I'm sorry :O

I have been trying this new mask recommended by peihong jiejie and rongher; hopefully it's suitable for me!
It's from The Face Shop: Aloe Vera. (I'll do a review if it's good alright!)

How long has it been, since you spend time with just yourself?
Each and every day, too many of us are busy doing the repetitive work - waking up, work/school, meal time, off to bed, and the cycle repeats.

Since JC period, I have been leading a life, sometimes too exhausting for me to handle. As a result, I somehow managed to bury most of my inner emotions deep down, well.
Even though so much has happened, I have yet to really face these issues.

And so tonight, while waiting for a late-night bus home, I plugged in my ear-piece, listening to this new addiction. JJ Lin's new song: Frozen Kiss. I have mentioned to some that I find the melody a little too familiar, not in a bad way.
It's a beautiful song, yet some form of pain is inflicted each time this song is being replayed.

Facing that quiet road, memories start creeping in with this melody accompanying me that night. It's not exactly this song that reminds me of a particular someone, but a feeling that I have been missing.
I'm not trying to imply Im desperate for a someone to depend on - in fact I'm happier than in the past, with all the love and care I have now. It's just those night, once in a while, when you starting missing those feelings.




I know this is a social networking site and I am aware I should not post too personal feelings here; I just want to share this beautiful and powerful song, hoping it can relate to another.
It's not exactly being stuck in the past, wanting to go back in time.
I have moved on, because I have learnt. I have learnt the pain of losing someone, I have learnt the pain of regrets.

I listen to a familiar melody, so as to remind myself of the times that I have cried in pain; I listen to lyrics that depicts my situations and feelings then, so as not to hurt again.

I'm gonna quote from my idol JJ Lin, "The antagonizing moments which I used to scream and pray would pass quickly, would be the same moments I eventually miss after the pain has gone away. I sing, to remember these scars, To celebrate these memories."

Only through love and friendship, can we create the illusion for the moment we are not alone

Dear friend, you asked me if i ever felt this moment when I don't feel like saying anything at all.

Yes, I did. I have ever get these times too. When I don't want to talk to anybody, don’t want to smile and don’t want to pretend to be happy. But at the same time I don’t know exactly what’s wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If I could want anything in the world, then it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when I am alone no one will constantly ask me what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer. I felt the way you are right now, hoping the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again. Albeit until then, all you can do is wait.

It's okay to feel down at times. We all know there are full of ups and downs in life.
Maybe we do know the reason or reasons deep down, but we chose to run away from them.
Maybe we just don't want to inflict more pain on ourselves, maybe we just aren't brave enough to face whatever that is haunting us.
But to your second question, no. HELL NO.
I dont think you should feel that way at all. I guess you just want to be alone.
Nobody is pretending to care when they aren't deep down. They do my dear, they care genuinely for you. They are concerned about your well-being, they are concerned about your happiness!

I know that feeling will go away soon.
Maybe you are facing tremendous pressure right now and you just want to run away from it.
I'm just guessing. I mean, only you know the reason deep down.
And dear friend, you are an awesome person. I salute you for holding on to so many responsibilities even when you aren't oblige to.
Just remember, we only live this life once. Live it the way you want it to be, not the way others put their expectations on you.

You are in my prayer; I hope to see you throwing all these negativities away real soon.
Felt like giving you a hug now. :( *hugggggg
Please be okay.

Embrace life once again my dear!