Little dreams of mine, of girls.

"I was told, the average girl begins to plan her wedding at the age of 7.
She picks the colors and the cake first.

By the age of 10, she knows time, and location.

By 17, she’s already chosen a gown, 2 bridesmaids, and a maid of honour.

By 23, she’s waiting for a man, who wont break out in hives when he hears the word “commitment”.
Someone who doesn’t smell like a Band-Aid drenched in lonely;
someone who isn’t a temporary solution to the empty side of the bed;
someone who’ll hold her hand like it’s the only one they’ve ever seen.



While I walk down the aisle nervously, like a 5 foot promise, I will put on a smile. A smile so big you will see it on google map.

When the pastor asks if I take my man as my husband, I will say yes before he finishes the sentence.
I’ll apologize later for being impolite.
But I will also explain to him, that our first kiss happened years ago.
And I’ve been practicing my “yes” ever since.

When people ask me about my future husband, I don't really know what to say.
But for sure that I know,
His eyes are the only Christmas lights that deserve to be seen all year long;
he would be a someone who loves to laugh, even at the silliest joke;
he would be terrible at lying, because he is one kind soul.

I tell them

If my alarm clock sounded like his voice

My snooze button would collect dust

I tell them

If he came in a bottle

I would drink him until my vision is blurry and my friends take away my keys

If he was a book

I would memorise his table of contents

I would read his cover-to-cover

Hoping to find typos

Just so we can both have a few things to work on

Because aren’t we all unfinished?

Don’t we all need a little editing?

Aren’t we all waiting to be proofread by someone?

Aren’t we all praying they will tell us that we make sense

He doesn’t always make sense

But his imperfections are the things I love about her the most

I don’t know when I will be married;
I don’t know where I will be married;
But I do know this,
Whenever I’m asked about my future husband
I would say … He's the best thing that has ever walked into my life."

We can never always be champion, for there is only space for one.

An overdued post (stuck in draft for some reason), but it's a beautiful one so tada!

I'm so thankful for life, for that I'm loved, and able to love.

I fall from the sky some time last week. I was so happy I saw the first A in my days in University, and then the very next day, I received a C+ report.
But I thank god, because then he showed a someone who love and care for me. She brought lunch for me (cooked by her mum aka my god-ma!) to make my day a millions time better.

My mummy came to drive me to school and I managed to witness this beautiful sunset. (Aww, I'm so so loved! Thank you mummy <3)

On a side note, I have lied. (Okay, I finally gonna say the truth).
I actually do like sunset more than sunrise. (I know most of us love sunrise, or it makes no difference to more! But I decided to be different, to stick to my real love for once).
It could be due to that I could hardly wake up that early to catch the amazing sunrise. I know sunrise signifies a brand new beginning, another miracle and full or surprise day waiting for us.
Yet, sunset always mesmerises me a little more.
I dont think sunset means the end of the day; it means a good closure to me. And one signifies another new beginning, that I can look forward to. I like the feeling of anticipating!

I don't know if I'm making sense thus far, but I shall end of with a something to keep me going (that C+ report really hit me quite badly).
As the tile suggests, we can never always be champion, for there is only space for one. But go deep down, find and recognize the champion within our souls, and tell ourselves to be brave, to face the challenge of making sure we finish the race. :) 

到处风流，程还年轻。

到处风流，程还年轻。 

和你们一块儿风流的女生，能够满足你们。
和你们一块儿风流的女生，能过让你们快乐 。
和你们一块儿风流的女生，能过让你们玩得痛快。
和你们一块儿风流的女生，能过让你们忘了烦恼。
和你们一块儿风流的女生，能过让你们做真真的自己。

但，这一切都只是短暂的不是吗？
玩够了，玩疯了，就会要平静的生活。

因为终于长大了，了解之前的一切，都只能让你快乐一整子。
之前的一切，都只是短暂的把烦恼丢到脑后。
总有一天，还是得面对一切。 

然后，你们就会寻找好好女生。
又或者，你们终于看到一直再你身边默默付出，默默关心，默默等待的她。
Then you realised, that they are the only true “wife material”, the one angel that you can live your rest of your life with and depend on her.

然而，一早就发现她们的好的好先生怎么办呢？

女人啊，真蠢。
宁可相信听到的，也不可相信自己眼睛目睹的一切一切。
他的一句对不起，心又软了。 

这些男生啊，仗着懂得美言几句，就吃定女生们。
这些男生啊，以为自己很有魅力，就吃定女生们。

对他们而言，爱情是一场游戏。
对他们而言，爱情是一场盛战。 

爱情对他们而言，自有输与赢。
而他们这些男生，永远都是赢家 。。。

P.S. An overdue post.

Confession of a Shopaholic

TGIF :D
Finally I can say it like I mean it.
Yet, nah. I have one of the worst outbreak ever and I have to visit a doctor because my face is kinda swollen.

Projects and overwhelming assignments are killing me.
I practically went crazy yesterday and shop for the whole day. Yes, alone. That's why nobody stops me. The pictures below will justify why.

I was actually looking for some formal wear, but I ended up getting other stuff.

Look at the number of carriers OMG.

And below are just some of the items I have got. :/
Crazy.

I realised I have way quite a number of pairs of heels. #shortpeoplefate
Yet many are too uncomfortable for me and I barely wore them twice. :(
#wastemoneyonly

And accessories? I'm too lazy to wear them out; my cardboard is full ald. :((
Hahaha; maybe they shall be my new motivation to dress decently to school rather than just pulling a rainbow jacket over because I overslept. BTW that jacket caught too many attention that day. I have people telling me they saw this jacket somewhere but didn't remembering seeing me. The power of colourful cardigan. Yay.

#boringpost; blame my boring day where I lock myself at home. :(

Girls' Talk not advisable!

Introducing my new favourite; GREEN TEA LATTE!

I fall in love with my first mouth; & I kept acting like a kid after.
I kept reiterating that I am so blissful because this particular drink just make me feel that way, make my entire day such a lovely one.
There were so many people in Starbucks that day. As good citizens, we do not want to hold up that place, so we decided to head to library after awhile.
Eunice was complaining that Starbucks was really stuffy then; I blamed the weather.

Library was a more conducive environment anyway; we studied at the café. It was not too quiet, nor too noisy, just nice.
Did I mention I couldn’t stay in a too quiet environment for too long? I would never step into the reading room unless I as last resort. It’s like you could hear so clearly when anyone just flip their books. That’s bad, to me.
Anyway, there was this group of girls who were having a really weird conversation at the Starbucks. I didn’t mean to eardrop, but apparently they were talking too loudly that I couldn’t focus on my revision. Damn.
I have no idea why they are holding a meeting there; one of the girls was confused if she had sexual activity with a guy that she likes when she was drunk the other day. Hmm.

Okay, moving on. We went Admiralty Place for dinner. Wanted to head to Marsiling Ba Xian Zai, but they were closed down. I didn’t even know about it, ohwell.

So we headed to Admiralty Place Food Court instead.

Had girls' talk after; something that I really love but I don't encourage it.

If you did realize, girls like to keep recapping the same old damn thing that’s bothering them.
And it’s not like talking things out that is bad, but rather, not finding solutions to it that is unhealthy. Reinforcing these negative thoughts, adding hatred and making ourselves more boiled is the only thing we got in the end usually.
 So, this time we didn’t. We forced ourselves to admit things, and make decisions on things that are bothering us.
 And one thing, I hate it when girls say story about an event, be it another guy or whatsoever, and add their own elements into every single event.
 Though I have to admit I did it at times too. Bleh. hahaha!

Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.

Revenge S2E4: They say that let he who is without sin cast the fire stone. And to be without sin requires absolute forgiveness.
But when your memories are freshly opened as wounds, forgiveness is the most unnatural of all human emotions.

I couldn't agree more to that.
Dearest Nickie must be wondering what exactly happened that destroyed such a big part of me.
When I have decided not to protect that someone anymore, I will come to you.

Yet again, the more anger towards the past you carry in you heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present.
If I want to forget someone, and move on, I must give up hating them.
It's hard to forget someone you hate, because hatred takes pieces of your heart - thereby this person stays within your heart.

If you want to forget someone, let go of the hate, and create peace in your heart instead.
It's your road, and yours alone. others may walk it with you, but no one can walk it for you.
Whatever others say are deem useless if you do not want to let it go.
Stop holding on to what hurts, and make room for what feels good. Only I can make that happen.
Noted.
Yes, I do need reminder like this one.

Everyone who is in your life is meant to be a part of that journey, but not all of them are meant to stay.
Never cry for that person who doesn't know the value of your tears.
So just please stop going back to the past.
Dear past, just stop freaking tap on our shoulder and force us to look back.
Someone ever told me that it's useless, because the other party has ale moved on.
Staying at the same spot and crying over whatever has happened would not change anything.
Don't degrade yourself.

Might not be tonight, tomorrow of the next day, but everything's gonna be okay.
Eunice told me that everything's will be fine in the end. If' it is not okay, it is not the end(:

A little note to the girls are out there,
"Don't complain about someone not treating you right. If you know you deserve better, why are you with them?"

Don't bloody hold on to a relationship because he is your first; don't believe in fairytales please.
Don't bloody hold on to a relationship because it has been a long one; it's always an advantage for guys when it comes to this.
Don't bloody hold on to a relationship because you have given them your first; fuck those shits and never do it with them again.
DON't Don't don't become someone else you yourself don't even recognise; that's their ultimate aim - to destroy us.
Don't let them win this game. Yes, I see these as games.
Be who you are, hold on to your values and beliefs.
They are still many beautiful things and people in this world.
Be brave and explore them, find new meanings in life, pursue new dreams, live it to the fullest.

Don't let this little set back fail you.
You are still YOU.
As long as you allow yourself to.

I found my new directions :)