New Addiction: Frozen Freeze (JJ Lin)

Too stressed up with life recently; I have one of the my worst outbreaks recently.

If these images happen to scare anyone in the middle of the night, I'm sorry :O

I have been trying this new mask recommended by peihong jiejie and rongher; hopefully it's suitable for me!
It's from The Face Shop: Aloe Vera. (I'll do a review if it's good alright!)

How long has it been, since you spend time with just yourself?
Each and every day, too many of us are busy doing the repetitive work - waking up, work/school, meal time, off to bed, and the cycle repeats.

Since JC period, I have been leading a life, sometimes too exhausting for me to handle. As a result, I somehow managed to bury most of my inner emotions deep down, well.
Even though so much has happened, I have yet to really face these issues.

And so tonight, while waiting for a late-night bus home, I plugged in my ear-piece, listening to this new addiction. JJ Lin's new song: Frozen Kiss. I have mentioned to some that I find the melody a little too familiar, not in a bad way.
It's a beautiful song, yet some form of pain is inflicted each time this song is being replayed.

Facing that quiet road, memories start creeping in with this melody accompanying me that night. It's not exactly this song that reminds me of a particular someone, but a feeling that I have been missing.
I'm not trying to imply Im desperate for a someone to depend on - in fact I'm happier than in the past, with all the love and care I have now. It's just those night, once in a while, when you starting missing those feelings.




I know this is a social networking site and I am aware I should not post too personal feelings here; I just want to share this beautiful and powerful song, hoping it can relate to another.
It's not exactly being stuck in the past, wanting to go back in time.
I have moved on, because I have learnt. I have learnt the pain of losing someone, I have learnt the pain of regrets.

I listen to a familiar melody, so as to remind myself of the times that I have cried in pain; I listen to lyrics that depicts my situations and feelings then, so as not to hurt again.

I'm gonna quote from my idol JJ Lin, "The antagonizing moments which I used to scream and pray would pass quickly, would be the same moments I eventually miss after the pain has gone away. I sing, to remember these scars, To celebrate these memories."

Happy girls are the prettiest - I say!

Never take someone's feeling for granted, because you never know how much courage they took to show it to you.

Fear of rejection; yet you know that's the best solution. The irony here.
So for now, I won't force myself to have a space in your life. If you really know my worth, you will make one for me.

They say if you do not go after what what you want, you'll never have it.
They say if you do not ask, the answer will always be no.
They say if you do not step forward, you will always be in the same place.

Yet, I wish I didn't make it too obvious and thus hard on you.

I have always been proud of my heart.
It's been played, stabbed, cheater, burned and broken.

But somehow, it still works! :')




On a side note, I know it appears I am pretty obsessed with JJ Lin these days.
There are no other reason that I'm more than looking forward to his 10th Album - Stories Untold.
He worked extremely hard for this, so do support. It'll be good definitely!
因你 而在 Stories Untold will be releasing via major radios after 2/6 10AM Asia (US PST 2/5 6PM).

US - LA Chinese Radio AM1300 美國洛杉磯中文電台 http://www.am1300.com/index.php?m=content&c=index&a=lists&catid=8

Canada Chinese Raido 加拿大中文電台 AM1470 http://www.am1470.com/live/pop_live1470.php FM 96.1 http://www.am1470.com/live/pop_live961.php

Taiwan 台灣 Hit FM http://www.hitoradio.com/newweb/onair2013.php

Hong Kong 903 香港903商業電台 - 雲泥鐘情 http://www.881903.com/Page/Zh-TW/downloadtoolbar.aspx

Singapore 新加坡 1003 http://apps.radioactive.sg/sph/public/ufm1003/

Malaysia 馬來西亞 My FM http://apps.radioactive.sg/amp/public/myfm/

Mainland China 中國內地 Music Radio http://www.musicradio.cc/ City FM http://www.dzwww.com/cityfm/

Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

Once upon a time, I affirmed with my everything that I would do all to make you regret.
They say things that don’t kill you would definitely make you stronger.
Indeed. I thought that that would kill me, that you would kill me.

Then I realized, I was wrong.
To forgive but not to forget - things happened and we couldn’t undo them.
I know I may seem as a loser on the surface, ranting on the same damn old thing that wont change a thing. Freak. Loser. It’s just hard for this, to me.

Give time time, it would get better one day.
We know. It’s just hard now.
Nickie, I’m feeling a little bad now. In fact, horrible.
A game that I took part in unknowingly, and he won.

Please let this gives me strength instead.
I have faced the worst, I just need to overcome this hurdle that’s bothering and affecting me this badly.
I will become better, wiser, and happier.

Give me reminders. I don’t want things like this to destroy me.

“Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.”
I need to find that peace, within me, more than anything else.

Love-Hate; which do you prefer?

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable, it opens your chest, it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up all these defenses. you build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you. 

Then, one stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.
You give them a piece of you, they don't ask for it.
They do something dumb someday, like kiss you or smile at you and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostage. it gets inside of you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

It hurts, not just in the imagination, not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real getsinside you and rips you apart pain. I hate love.

Yet again, I was dying to be madly in love.
Admit that, we all hate loneliness. We all want to love and to be love.

Damn, how irony.

Remember, true love doesn't hurt. Only wrong love do.

It's amazing how one day someone walks into your life, then the next day you wonder how will you live without them.
Once upon a time, I thought I don't need any part-timer people in my life. You are either with me till the end or you are not. You can't just come and go as you please, because I hate it when I became reliant on you and then the next moment you were gone.
I thought the only reason that relationships end hastily is precisely because people stop putting in the same effort they tried to keep you as they did to win you.
Then things happened. When I finally realized that we don't meet people by accident. They are meant to cross our path for a reason, or even reasons. Maybe when we are hurt we can't comprehend why god make such an arrangement. Maybe it's beyond our wisdom to even, in a long time.
Notwithstanding, I don't want to change the things I believe in. People told me that I should grow up, that I shouldn't trust that easily - but isn't humans innately good by nature? Albeit like Hsun Tsu, most agree that rather, we are innately bad and selfish, that we are governed by our instincts to survive and protect ourselves. True that, but not all the time! I want to hold on go this belief, my belief, even though I might have met the worst.

"When you love someone don't expect them to love you as much as you do; instead, love them so much that they for want to be loved by anyone else except you."

Having my favorite green tea latte at Starbucks.
It's rather empty here today.
Staring outside, it's a Sunday night.
Listening to Wilber's 我们都怕痛 repeatedly.
Indulge in deep thinking, on a night like this.