Stumbling back to those days

Dear you,
I wonder how are you doing now?
I see that you found your new love; but I'm still stuck here, missing the old days.
I knew I would regret, but that's the only thing I could do for you then.
In this life, we would never be friends again. I don't believe that love would fade; or perhaps I really like the feeling of me being myself when I am with you.
I wanted to text you, to give you a call, to hug you from behind once more and thank you from the bottom of my heart, for all unforgettable memories. They were beautiful, to love and to be loved.
I knew you held on to your promises till as long as you could, but life needs to move on. Before that killed you.

And then dear you YOU,
I know it's unfair for me to hate you, for that I allowed things to happen, to turn out this ugly.
We said we would still be friends no matter; you asked what happened to this.
I thought I could, but I over-estimated myself.
You know it clearly that I needed time, you said you would wait.
But you rushed into things, and I gave in after awhile.
Then you turn your back on me, shot right through my heart when I was ready.
I should have known, guys were a bastard back then would most likely be one again.

Perhaps my life was too beautiful, and I chose to ignore all the dark sides. I trusted you, I gave you everything that you needed, to prove that I was trying hard enough; you should know better, you should have felt it.
I have decided to forgive you, though anger may come gusting back in no time. I would forgive, but I would never forget. I know I need to learn from my mistakes, and not to regret.
It's so so tough though; values that I hold so dearly to me were being destroyed.
Sometimes I wonder how long can I hold on for.

Do I really have to change that way?
I have been blamed, for being too selfless, for being too gullible, for being too innocent, for being too optimistic. Am I really one? I don't think so, not at all. I'm just really selfish and only chose to believe in all the happy-ending.
I don't know what I can do to make myself at least feel better.
I'm so tired .. I wish there's someone out there who knows.
I dont want to cry myself to sleep. I don't want to be a weak. I don't want to be a loser who just keep on ranting. But I need a place to let it all out.
I need it, so badly. A place where I would not be judge, excluding myself.

People asked why I no longer like slow melancholy love songs; I just don't want to read into the lyrics anymore, to wallow in self-pity, to beat myself up after.

I know there are so much things in life that I can look forward to, so much more that I can do.
I know I can't go back and undo things.
But dear past, can you please please please stop tapping on my shoulder?
I dont want to look back; this internal struggle is really killing me. Before I recovered from the first nightmare, the second one came haunting me.

Courage, I need you. To face all these mistakes. To embrace life once more.
I know I won't go into any relationship anymore, not any time soon at least. I hate the me I am now.
Can one day it really happened that all were just a nightmare?

Happy Halloween 2012

Happy Halloween People.!

I have never actually celebrated this event before for the past 18 years of my life. NEVER.
& this year, with the head start of USS Halloween 2012, I start to wonder why people celebrate this special event.
As usual, google - our best friend.
Here is what I have found out:

Halloween is celebrated on the evening of October 31st, which is the evening before the Christian feast of All Saint's Day.
Villagers would try to appease goblins and demons with offerings of food and nuts. They would leave little treats that the household had to offer, to satisfy the hunger of these demons. If the demon was satisfied with the treat, it was believed it would not trick the person or cast an evil spell. Therein lies the origin of the present day trick or treat.
Legend has it that people would also wear masks or other disguises and blacken their faces to try and pass unnoticed by the spirits. This stemmed from the belief that ghosts or spirits cannot see their own reflection. Hence, if a goblin or demon saw another creature looking suitably horrible, they would run away in terror. 

Credits: Pitara Kids Network

In school, after Social Work lecture, there's this girl who dressed up as a demon and stood by the door. So went our class ended, and people start walking out of the hall, we heard screammmms! So adorable!

Went forward to take pictures before her other demon and bloody friends came to join in!

Daddy woke me up and told me people are celebrating Halloween next to the Woodgrove.

The stretch of Terrace House: Woodlands St 31

Basically, most of them would open their houses. One just has to bring a bag along and walk in to collect candies!

It's pretty cool, all their houses were nicely decorated, put on their make up and welcomed us!

Enjoyed myself, below are some pictures I've taken.

Did not manage to take a picture with her kid. They were dressed as clowns, and when he gave me his biggest smile he could, I almost melted. ~

Can you spot a kid here? He's so naughty! He scare me and I went like "WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU!" & he wanted to shoot me. Cuteness to the max.

Saw a family who dressed up with the "walking dead" theme. *salute to their dad who walked bare footed, dragged his foot, and didn't stop growling!

Looking forward to the next Halloween! Putting aside how much I detest haunted houses and bloody scenes, I enjoyed myself alot this year :D

Introducing my Daddy! :D Super Duper Cute! :D

Straightened my hair!

BAMZ.
Yup, I straightened my hair 2 days ago - not that I'm super rich and change my hairstyle like I'm some superstar. I couldn't maintain and manage my permed hair; not to mention it was not nicely done in the first place. Regretted much.
So I went to the salon where I always have my haircut. She managed to salvage my hair!

UNISEX HAIR SALON
Woodlands St 32
BLK 325 #01-141

She applied the cream twice; straightened it TWICE (Btw if you know me you should know how thick my hair is); treatment and a final hair cut!
It cost me $165 :) A pretty reasonable price - given my hair length, condition (it was so so screwed up!), and volume!

The lady is very kind and friendly. She's working alone though, so I'd recommend one to make appointment in advance.

I like my hair now :)

Life story of Tae-Ho

A story about an extraordinary little boy, name Tae-Ho.

This was a clip shown to me during my Social Work lecture yesterday. The very reason I love Social Work lectures, lecturers always share inspiring clips & videos. One that which will make us reflect.

I pray that Tae-Ho's health will get better. I don't know how, but I hope his positiveness will stay him for a life time. As a child, he has yet to face the world outside. A much more cruel place, where not everyone will give in to him. I pray that he could always stay this strong, that his world would always be such a beautiful place.
Albeit putting this aside, he's ald one amazing boy. How many could actually pull through this? He doesn't even see himself as someone who's disabled, let alone handicap. He strive to be a someone who could be of great help to many.

It's good to watch these inspiring videos once in a while, to serve as a reminder, that we should place our focus on a bigger picture. Be grateful rather than demanding; live your life to the greatest, live a life worth living.
I know motivation doesn't stay. But we always have a choice in life. So, for my one friend who told me you are giving up life, I hope you will change your mind. Because you could still become someone so so great. :)

TGIF!

Thank Guan Yin it's Friday; a really long weekend.
Well, being a multi racial country we are privileged to be granted so many holidays, YAY.

Finals are coming up in a month, just boo boo! I know.
But hey wait, that means holidays are coming too! I can smell them.

I will probably have to control myself = No blogging and FB and Instagram these days! Okay NO is too strong a word, let me lower it down a level to not so often.

So to play safe, come back in a month time. If things go well, I should be able to go to Tai Wan after Finals. BUT, it's really sad. Because mummy daddy and both di di not going. It will be fun still, I know :) & most importantly, to learn!

Till then, have fun and enjoy life!

Neighbour Unite! :D

 Yay! Joshua finally came back to Singapore; though I'm not sure when he's sailing off to again.
So we met up; started talking about all the ghost stories; BOOOO!

Hahaha, super cute right! Guess it was too bright; the flash I mean!

I like this shot a lot, thanks Josh! *newprofilepicture YAY

Didn't show face still better right? OH well!
Why am I suan-ing myself, hmmm~

On a side note, you better teach me guitar!

Oh ya he gave me souveniers and I just saw this really sweet note!


Meet up again & make full use of your DSLR okay!
*Smirk; somebody don't know how to use, like at all! HAHAHA

Extension of 1 Hour for USS Halloween Nights 2

Perhaps I am a little slow, but I just saw this being posted by Resort World at Sentosa: http://www.facebook.com/ResortsWorldatSentosa

Well, how unlucky could I be right?
Although I am not too sure if an additional 1 hour will help a lot, but definitely an additional ride or house is good!

Crowd control is definitely needed next year I suppose.
Not just to sell as many tickets as they want; and couldn't deliver it or satisfy MOST customers.
That's just bad.

I saw some of the really funny things that people feedback about.

Here it is;

 LOL; LOOK AT THE PART WHERE THE GHOSTS START TO HIDE WHEN IT WAS DRIZZLING

Seriously? :(

Totally Agree!

& Remember I mentioned apart the complimentary tickets from the following event?

They promised us that the tickets are available for entrance on ANY days.
Which was rather weird because there is a validity date stated on the tickets.
When we called Resort World Sentosa, they just pass the calls to one another. & finally they decided to push the blame to the Cathay. Well Done.

Spoilt my image of Resort World totally.
& not to mention, the Cathay have yet to contact us to date. Oh well.
Just upset.

I am not saying that their events are a boo-boo. In fact I have to compliment that I really like the effects and their ability to transform the whole place into such a great-atmosphere in an hour or so. But what came after, the way their handle their customers and pushing the blame away are just so unprofessional.