Friday, 16 November 2012

They gave me the questions which i don't know; so i wrote answers which they don't know.

A week ago felt so recent, yet things differ critically. 
Maybe not to anyone else, but just myself.

Perhaps I have been reading to much into words; perhaps I have been over-sensitive; perhaps I am confused myself; perhaps I was just seeking for something comforting; perhaps I was drained; perhaps I am living in deception; perhaps I am in a Matrix World, and someone decided to do some alteration to my world - after effect from too many Philosophy readings. #MatrixWorldpleasedontexist!
Okay, to think that I'm still in the mood to joke conceivably suggests I don't feel so bad from within. Must be my monthly friend's visit, making me more emotional than usual. LOL

I was just speculating, because they are stuck in my head I can't seem to contemplate.


Would things change one bit if I reacted differently? Would I ever have an answer to all my uncertainties?

Dear Finals please come and go soon...
I need a break from you, not to mention that I have yet to study diligently.
I have great plans ahead, so give me my vacation soon!

Hort Park Visit Singapore

Headed to Hort Park last Sunday for December Outdoor Activity with BXB.
Location: 33 Hyderabad Road, Off Alexandra Road, Singapore 119578 

It's my first time being there, and I was particually attracted to the Butterfly little Hut. It has been centuries since I last saw so many butterflies, with vibrant coloured wings. How fascinating!













I find these little bottled plants exceptionally cute. Round round stuff just draw my attention:)

I like the place quite a lot.
Many places are under construction and upgrading currently.
Also, they have a roof top. I always love roof top; they always have the romantic feel, especially at night. Okay, I'm thinking too much perhaps. #Koreandramaeffect

If you are a park lover, I guess you cannot miss this out.
Albeit it is not an awesomely big place, it is a big enough space for one to enjoy their happy weekends in.
it is definitely a great place to chill out with families, for recreational activities, and not forgetting learning&education.

Oh, do check out their website http://www.nparks.gov.sg/cms/index.php?option=com_visitorsguide&task=parks&id=17&Itemid=73
They have many workshops for kids to learn and explore.
Of course, if you did like to get in touch with nature, they do have something for volunteers too!

Thursday, 15 November 2012

Sem 1 Coming to an End!

Oh my, semester one's coming to an end! How fast!
 I could still remember clearly how excited I was for the first lecture, along with Xing Jun.
Yup, I sticked to her ever since :)




Then we will always treat ourselves to good food when we are having Monday Blues or get the TGIF mood!
Managed to meet LahLah for an ice cream date a week or so ago! And I was so happy that day because  she finally admitted to me how much she loves her boy. Awww!

And after decades, I managed to meet this boy. Yes KKH, after mia from me for so so long!
Good chat up session plus his treat, YAY. (Because he was late :O)

Dragged myself out to study on a weekend with Eunice; a fruitful one! Decided to get a Starbucks card too, so pretty with a Christmas Tree. Gonna study with her again this Saturday! :D

My fellow World Religion Mates. They are cool people, smart and nice! :D




Not forgetting my beloved Social Work team! 


Worked hard together and we achieved a B+ for our project. So so proud of them, of us! :D Shall meet up soon beauties!


Semester 1 has been a delight for me; I have all the nicest people and of course, keeping in contact with my loved ones.
Although daddy's health have yet to improve much, plus all the papers for FASS are driving me crazy (not to mention I'm one in the first place ald); I'm glad I have pulled through Sem1.

I love sem one because of all these awesome people. :D
Days ahead, please be as good!

Heading out to study with Nickie, before a movie to reward myself tonight.
With Jia Min :)

Will be back soon with movies review - including "Ah Boys to Men", watched it with Joshua on Monday.
& to end off,

CONGRATULATION JOSHUA TEO FOR PASSING YOUR DRIVING TEST!

Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.

Revenge S2E4: They say that let he who is without sin cast the fire stone. And to be without sin requires absolute forgiveness.
But when your memories are freshly opened as wounds, forgiveness is the most unnatural of all human emotions.

I couldn't agree more to that.
Dearest Nickie must be wondering what exactly happened that destroyed such a big part of me.
When I have decided not to protect that someone anymore, I will come to you.

Yet again, the more anger towards the past you carry in you heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present.
If I want to forget someone, and move on, I must give up hating them.
It's hard to forget someone you hate, because hatred takes pieces of your heart - thereby this person stays within your heart.

If you want to forget someone, let go of the hate, and create peace in your heart instead.
It's your road, and yours alone. others may walk it with you, but no one can walk it for you.
Whatever others say are deem useless if you do not want to let it go.
Stop holding on to what hurts, and make room for what feels good. Only I can make that happen.
Noted.
Yes, I do need reminder like this one.

Everyone who is in your life is meant to be a part of that journey, but not all of them are meant to stay.
Never cry for that person who doesn't know the value of your tears.
So just please stop going back to the past.
Dear past, just stop freaking tap on our shoulder and force us to look back.
Someone ever told me that it's useless, because the other party has ale moved on.
Staying at the same spot and crying over whatever has happened would not change anything.
Don't degrade yourself.

Might not be tonight, tomorrow of the next day, but everything's gonna be okay.
Eunice told me that everything's will be fine in the end. If' it is not okay, it is not the end(:

A little note to the girls are out there,
"Don't complain about someone not treating you right. If you know you deserve better, why are you with them?"

Don't bloody hold on to a relationship because he is your first; don't believe in fairytales please.
Don't bloody hold on to a relationship because it has been a long one; it's always an advantage for guys when it comes to this.
Don't bloody hold on to a relationship because you have given them your first; fuck those shits and never do it with them again.
DON't Don't don't become someone else you yourself don't even recognise; that's their ultimate aim - to destroy us.
Don't let them win this game. Yes, I see these as games.
Be who you are, hold on to your values and beliefs.
They are still many beautiful things and people in this world.
Be brave and explore them, find new meanings in life, pursue new dreams, live it to the fullest.

Don't let this little set back fail you.
You are still YOU.
As long as you allow yourself to.

I found my new directions :)


Saturday, 10 November 2012

Happy 10-11-12 :D

Decided to spend this special date fruitfully - study day!

Headed to Woodlands Regional Library and was surprised to find a couple of seats. Perhaps it's because the O level students have completed their papers. Yay!
Joshua Oh was sleeping like idk what when he was the one who initiated this study session. Tsk.

Shall share what some interesting things I've learnt today:

1. The three faces of Eve: Eve white was the original dominant personality - bland, quiet, and serious. She had knowledge of her second personality, Eve Black - mischievous, uninhibited. Eve black would emerge at the most inappropriate times, leaving Eve White with hangovers, bills, etc.
This is the interesting part. During treatment, a third personality, Jane, emerged - more mature than the other two. She has developed as a result of therapy. But too, others criticized therapy has worsened dissociative identity disorder (DID), creating more identities, alternate identities. Hmm.

2. DID is usually a social construction! Rather than being a single person with many conflicting feelings etc, the individual compartmentalizes different aspects if the self into independent identities. People adopt this to make sense of their experiences.

Okay shall not bore you with these stuff - psychology ~

Went for a TeaBreak after.
I'm supposed to have a healthy meal - given that I've been sleeping at weird timing these days (biological clock is screwed) - like the bowl of fruits, or strawberries!

Butttttttt. I had craving for Chessecake, and so. Oops. Plus Longan Punch!
Plus J gave me snickers after. #guilty.
Thanks for the treat btw! :D

Was struggling if I should go for a jog with J, but it was too late. Maybe tmr morning? See what time I'm in bed tonight I guess! :)

Friday, 9 November 2012

表达爱

我们擦身而过风卷起了沉睡的什么情绪在怂恿 撑开了懵懂有一种冲动
决定不沉默毕竟有感觉的人不多我不想就此错过
眼睁睁看爱 就这样过吗
至少我和你 可以说说话  证明刚刚发生过什么

用表白 换一份期待能不能就少一点忐忑 无奈心还 绕着你徘徊难道 真是爱
泪水流过 才明白爱不爱 原来心里早已 存在
幸福 不在千里外让我勇敢 表达爱

Right or wrong; don't rush into things.
Because all the time, I'm always wrong - when it comes to this like love.

Tuesday, 6 November 2012

Only through love and friendship, can we create the illusion for the moment we are not alone

Dear friend, you asked me if i ever felt this moment when I don't feel like saying anything at all.

Yes, I did. I have ever get these times too. When I don't want to talk to anybody, don’t want to smile and don’t want to pretend to be happy. But at the same time I don’t know exactly what’s wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If I could want anything in the world, then it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when I am alone no one will constantly ask me what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer. I felt the way you are right now, hoping the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again. Albeit until then, all you can do is wait.


It's okay to feel down at times. We all know there are full of ups and downs in life.
Maybe we do know the reason or reasons deep down, but we chose to run away from them.
Maybe we just don't want to inflict more pain on ourselves, maybe we just aren't brave enough to face whatever that is haunting us.
But to your second question, no. HELL NO.
I dont think you should feel that way at all. I guess you just want to be alone.
Nobody is pretending to care when they aren't deep down. They do my dear, they care genuinely for you. They are concerned about your well-being, they are concerned about your happiness!


I know that feeling will go away soon.
Maybe you are facing tremendous pressure right now and you just want to run away from it.
I'm just guessing. I mean, only you know the reason deep down.
And dear friend, you are an awesome person. I salute you for holding on to so many responsibilities even when you aren't oblige to.
Just remember, we only live this life once. Live it the way you want it to be, not the way others put their expectations on you.

You are in my prayer; I hope to see you throwing all these negativities away real soon.
Felt like giving you a hug now. :( *hugggggg
Please be okay.

Embrace life once again my dear!