Tuesday, 30 April 2013

I know I'm blessed, for that I have found the purpose for my life


Thank you God, for gracing me with such a comfortable weather so I can sleep well.


Thank you Mummy Daddy for making me so delicious breakfast in the morning.
I know I'm spoilt.
How much more could I ask for? This is just too yummy!
My daddy is a cook, and he cooks the most delicious vegetarian food that no one else can ever come close to! I love you.


Thank you Pei Hong jiejie for accompanying me to study for the past week, otherwise I would have wasted my days away lazing around.
I'm sorry for always being late :(

I wonder if I could find such a good studying partner from next semester onwards.

I am back to my old love. Sorry for ditching you for quite some time. Soy green tea latte is still the best that none could replace. Thank you for letting me find you back!



Thank you idol! We'll probably never have the chance to meet in person, but still I wanna dedicate this appreciation to you. Thank you for making so many beautiful music, for that they have inspired me, reminding me of certain values I should hold on to, and for accompanying me through many moments. Most importantly, thank you for appearing in my dreams!! This may sound silly, but those are certainly the sweetest dreams I could ask for (except one when you told all of us that you were engaged :O). Thank you for having those little conversations in my dreams - okay this is sounding ridiculous. I shall stop. But these are really the little things (or maybe there are big things to me) that never failed to put on a smile on me despite these crazily pressurised days.

There are many many people I want to thank. For that I was down for the past few days and you dearests were there. 
I love it when people give encouragements that caught me by surprise. Thank you for initiating to accompany to study with me Gordon and Shuan. Thank you for wanting to prepare snacks for me to cheer me on Joshua. Thank you for willing to fight with me and stand by me when results that bad hit me Xing Jun. Thank you for always being there and never leaving me, with your special words Nickie and Jia Min. Thank you for making me laugh with your unique sense of humour Rong Her and Eunice. Thank you for your little notes, messages, etc, and encourage me to push on Catherine, Kheng Leng, Sarah, Aaron, Michelle, Joanne and many many more! Thank you for giving me a midnight call when you realised I was suffering from insomnia Nicholas. Thank you for recommending products just so hoping I can sleep earlier Yi Hao. Thank you Eugene for constantly nagging at me just so wanting me to sleep earlier. I hope I don't miss out anyone. But I really wanna thank all of you for making my days so much more bearable. I'm well now and I'm sorry for making you worried. I'm back, fighting! 




When we appreciate more, we find more joy in everyday life.
I know it seems so commercialised, but one day I will make it a good habit. I will learn to see the good in everything, not in the naive way.
That day will come soon I know, for that that will equate to happiness.

Do you still remember who you love?

Today was such an ineffective day; full house for Starbucks and Library was freezing cold.
I booked an consultation with my tutor, along with Xing Jun - hopefully they can convince me and move on.

I was feeling rather dejected I won't deny. D+ and a A- differ so much; this is just too much.
I was so hoping I wont be blinded with just the academic results; I felt I was so shallow.

In an attempt to make my day a little better (rather than sulking whole night), I went to visit the newly open Fairprice opposite my house (renovated). It is so neat! And much more variety - the first that caught my attention was the myriad brands of cheese!

And so I tried to cook :O
I failed so badly. The pictures below will justify why.
I thought it gonna taste damn good HAHAHA. I think too highly of myself! Well, I had fun while it lasted.



Here I am, listening to my playlist.
This is the first music being played tonight.

Although it is definitely not one of his best pieces, it does bring about a different kind of beauty.

“怎么走,怎么还原。我好想回到单纯的世界。”
Racing in this ever fast-paced world, how many times have we paused and reflect?
Racing in this ever fast-paced world, how many times have we leave time for our dearests?

When was the last time you had a proper meal with your family?
When was the last time you gave your best friends a hug?

In life, too many of us regrets on the things we did, and we missed.
In this year alone, I have encountered too many deaths, and people contracting major illnesses. It reminded me how fragile one life can be. It reminded me the purpose of life.

I realised I have been cursing and swearing at so many judges/tutors in these recent years. I felt that there were way too many unfairness and there is also so much that I can do.
Then again, 5 years down the road, 10 years down the road, will this results/achievements still matter that much? Will it destroy you? Or will you learn from it and do better?

Yes, I'm reminded. It's not about accepting and being a loser. It's not about not accepting and wanting to take revenge, proving that he/she is wrong. It's about how you GROW in person. It's about how much you have given, and be proud (I mean for yourself) in years to come.

Be brave. Be kind. Dare to love. Dare to dream. Dare to live!

Saturday, 27 April 2013

New Addiction: Frozen Freeze (JJ Lin)


Too stressed up with life recently; I have one of the my worst outbreaks recently.

If these images happen to scare anyone in the middle of the night, I'm sorry :O

I have been trying this new mask recommended by peihong jiejie and rongher; hopefully it's suitable for me!
It's from The Face Shop: Aloe Vera. (I'll do a review if it's good alright!)


How long has it been, since you spend time with just yourself?
Each and every day, too many of us are busy doing the repetitive work - waking up, work/school, meal time, off to bed, and the cycle repeats.

Since JC period, I have been leading a life, sometimes too exhausting for me to handle. As a result, I somehow managed to bury most of my inner emotions deep down, well.
Even though so much has happened, I have yet to really face these issues.

And so tonight, while waiting for a late-night bus home, I plugged in my ear-piece, listening to this new addiction. JJ Lin's new song: Frozen Kiss. I have mentioned to some that I find the melody a little too familiar, not in a bad way.
It's a beautiful song, yet some form of pain is inflicted each time this song is being replayed.

Facing that quiet road, memories start creeping in with this melody accompanying me that night. It's not exactly this song that reminds me of a particular someone, but a feeling that I have been missing.
I'm not trying to imply Im desperate for a someone to depend on - in fact I'm happier than in the past, with all the love and care I have now. It's just those night, once in a while, when you starting missing those feelings.




I know this is a social networking site and I am aware I should not post too personal feelings here; I just want to share this beautiful and powerful song, hoping it can relate to another.
It's not exactly being stuck in the past, wanting to go back in time.
I have moved on, because I have learnt. I have learnt the pain of losing someone, I have learnt the pain of regrets.

I listen to a familiar melody, so as to remind myself of the times that I have cried in pain; I listen to lyrics that depicts my situations and feelings then, so as not to hurt again.

I'm gonna quote from my idol JJ Lin, "The antagonizing moments which I used to scream and pray would pass quickly, would be the same moments I eventually miss after the pain has gone away. I sing, to remember these scars, To celebrate these memories."

Friday, 26 April 2013

Insomnia, for days

Too bright, I can't sleep.
(I just wanted to show off my contact lenses, full stop).

Yes, insomnia hits me, for nights.
My biological clock is officially screwed now I sleep in the day.

I have been lagging behind my schedule so badly I don't know how to catch up, #rage.

Okay, nonsensical post. (Need to remove in due time)

Thursday, 25 April 2013

We can never always be champion, for there is only space for one.

An overdued post (stuck in draft for some reason), but it's a beautiful one so tada!


I'm so thankful for life, for that I'm loved, and able to love.

I fall from the sky some time last week. I was so happy I saw the first A in my days in University, and then the very next day, I received a C+ report.
But I thank god, because then he showed a someone who love and care for me. She brought lunch for me (cooked by her mum aka my god-ma!) to make my day a millions time better.

My mummy came to drive me to school and I managed to witness this beautiful sunset. (Aww, I'm so so loved! Thank you mummy <3)

On a side note, I have lied. (Okay, I finally gonna say the truth).
I actually do like sunset more than sunrise. (I know most of us love sunrise, or it makes no difference to more! But I decided to be different, to stick to my real love for once).
It could be due to that I could hardly wake up that early to catch the amazing sunrise. I know sunrise signifies a brand new beginning, another miracle and full or surprise day waiting for us.
Yet, sunset always mesmerises me a little more.
I dont think sunset means the end of the day; it means a good closure to me. And one signifies another new beginning, that I can look forward to. I like the feeling of anticipating!

I don't know if I'm making sense thus far, but I shall end of with a something to keep me going (that C+ report really hit me quite badly).
As the tile suggests, we can never always be champion, for there is only space for one. But go deep down, find and recognize the champion within our souls, and tell ourselves to be brave, to face the challenge of making sure we finish the race. :) 

Saturday, 20 April 2013

The Butterfly Circus: Nick Vujicic


My new favourite book. After my finals!


If you have read my previous post, you would be familiar with him. 
Yes, he's my new hero - Nick Vujicic.

In the midst of this crazy preparation for finals (my hard work better pay off!), the delivery man came and it totally my day.
If flew all the way from Australia and tada - Nick Vujicic collections - ranging from DVDs, to books, and a shirt (Never Give Up! - Definitely something I need quite badly now).


I have watched The Butterfly Circus and I really love the cast.
Butterflies were once a caterpillars.

You are a failure, a no good, only because you believe in it.
As unbelievable as it sounds, and even harder to convince ourselves to think this way, we don't have to let others voices dictate who we are. We are who we think we are. 

A truly inspiring short film and I enjoyed every minute of the cast. Even though it's heart wrenching, it brings me strength and I'm motivated once again. Motivation doesn't last, and so we need to feed ourselves with one - even so daily!

I managed to find this short film on youtube. If you enjoyed the film as much as I did, please support and get the original one here: http://thebutterflycircus.com/store/

Go grab a good coffee and enjoy your night with one of the most beautiful film: The Butterfly Circus!


What else have you learned/been inspired from this short film? :D

Vegetarian Stall Operates for 24 @ Ang Mo Kio


  
Location: Block 630 Ang Mo Kio St 61
Opening Hours: Daily 24 hours

Dish: Mee Pok
Remarks: Their most famous dish. It's good for my tasting!

Dish: Kway Chap

Dish: Laksa
Remarks: I just felt something was missing without egg being served :(


Dish: Fried Wan ton
Remarks: It tastes good and I love them; just that it's way too unhealthy to consume them on daily basis. :O



Overall Remarks: I felt that their dishes suits my taste better compared to many other stalls. And that's precisely the reason why it is the most visited stall for my family! Hah!